Love In A Colder Climate – The Final Cut

  

 

       Lucile McCabe, my assignment for the evening, lived in the Spanish quarter of the city, and to avoid any catcalls – those of us doing our patriotic duty were figures of fun, not envy – I had dressed in my Castilian Waiter costume. The apartment was in a nondescript building kept on its feet by an armature of crumbling fire escapes. An elevator surely booked into a museum of industrial archaeology carried me grudgingly to the seventh floor. The bell hung by a single exposed wire, and I had to tap several times on the door. The silence made me hope that Miss McCabe, a lecturer in English literature, had been called away for the evening.

 

       But the door opened with a jerk, revealing a small, white-faced young woman with spiky black hair, dressed in polka-dot leotard like a punk circus clown.

 

      ‘Miss McCabe…?’ I began. ‘Are you –’

 

      ‘Ready to order?’ She gazed with mock wide eyes at my waiter’s costume. ‘Yes, I’ll have paella with a side dish of gambas. And don’t forget the Tabasco.’

        

      ‘Tabasco? Look, I’m David Bradley, your partner for –’

 

      ‘Relax, Mr. Bradley.’ She closed the door and snatched the keys from the lock, which she jingled in my face. ‘It was a joke, remember those?’

 

      ‘Only just.’ Clearly I was in the presence of a maverick, one of those wayward young women who affected an antic air as a way of rising above the occasion. ‘Well. It’s wonderful to see you, Lucille. I’ve always wanted to know about English literature.’

 

      ‘Forget it. How long have you been doing this? You don’t look totally numbed.’ She stood with her back to me by the crowded bookshelf, fingers drumming along the titles as if hunting for some manual that would provide a solution to the problem posed by my arrival. For all the bravado, her shoulders were shaking. ‘Is that where I fix you a drink? I can’t remember that awful script.’

 

      ‘Skip the drink. We can get straight to it if you’re in a hurry.’

 

      ‘I’m not in a hurry at all.’ She walked stiffly into the bedroom and sat like a moody teenager on the unmade divan. Nothing in my counseling sessions, the long hours of watching porno videos in the church hall, had prepared me for all this – the non-regulation costume, the tousled sheets, the absence of flattering chitchat. Was she a new kind of undercover inspector, an agent provocateur targeted at those potential subversives like myself? Already I saw my work norm increased to seven evenings a week. Beyond that lay the fearsome threat of a testicular booster…

 

      Then I noticed her torn assignment card on the carpet at her feet. No inspector, however devious, would ever maltreat an assignment card.

      Wondering how to console her, I stepped forward. But as I crossed the threshold a small, strong hand shot up.

 

      ‘Stay there!” She gazed at me with the desperate look of a child about to assaulted, and I realized that for all her fierceness she was novice recruit, probably on her first assignment. The spiked tips of her hair were trembling like the eye feathers of a trapped peafowl.

 

      ‘All right, you can come in. Do you want something to eat? I can guarantee the best scrambled egg in town, my hands are shaking so much. How do you put up with all this?’

 

      ‘I don’t think about it anymore’

 

      ‘I don’t think about anything else. Look, Mr. Bradley – David, or whatever you’re called – I can’t go through this. I don’t want to fight with you…

 

      ‘Don’t worry.’ I raised my hands, already thinking about the now free evening. “I’m on my way. The rules forbid all use of force, no fumbling hands or wrestling.’

 

      ‘How sensible. And how different from my grandmother’s day.’ She smiled bleakly, as if visualizing the courtship that has led to the conception of her own mother. With a nervous shrug, she followed me to the door. ‘Tell me, what happens next? I know you have to report me.’

 

      ‘Well… there’s nothing too serious.’ I hesitated to describe the long counseling sessions that lay ahead, the weeks of being harangued by relays of nuns brandishing their videos. After all the talk there was chemotherapy, when she would be so sedated that nothing mattered, and she would close her eyes and think of her patriotic duty and the next generation, the playgrounds laugh of tots, one of them her own… ‘I shouldn’t worry. They’re very civilized. At least you’ll get a better apartment.’

 

      ‘Oh thanks. Once, you must have been rather sweet. But they get you in the end…’

 

      I took the latchkey from her hand, wondering how to reassure her. The dye had run down her powdered forehead, a battle line redrawn across her brain. She stood with her back against the bookshelves, a woad-streaked Boadicca facing the Roman legions. Despite her distress, I had the curious sense that she was as concerned for me as for herself and even now was trying to work out some strategy that would save us both.

 

      ‘No…’ I closed the door and locked it again. ‘They won’t get you. Not necessarily…’

 

*

 

       My Love affair with Lucille McCabe began that evening, but the details of our life together belong to the private domain. Not that there is anything salacious to reveal. As it happens, our relationship was never consummated in the physical sense, but this did not in any way diminish my deep infatuation with this remarkable young woman. The long months of my national service notwithstanding, the hundreds of reluctant Rebeccas and stoical Susans, I soon felt that Lucille McCabe was the only woman I had ever really known. During the six months of our clandestine affair I discovered a wealth of emotion and affection that made me envy all earlier generations.

 

     At the start, my only aim was to save Lucille. I forgot signatures, hoodwinked a distracted supervisor confused by the derelict apartment building, begged or bribed my friends to swap shifts, and Lucille feigned a pregnancy with the aid of a venal laboratory technician. Marriage or any monogamous relationship was taboo during the period of one’s patriotic duty, the desired aim being an open promiscuity and the greatest possible stirring of the gene pool. Nonetheless, I was able to spend almost all my spare time with Lucille, acting as lover, night watchman, spymaster and bodyguard. She, in turn, made sure that my medical studies were not neglected. Once I qualified and she herself was free to marry, we would legally become man and wife.

 

      Inevitable we were discovered by a suspicious supervisor with an over-sensitive computer. I had already realized that we would be exposed, and during these few moths I became more and more protective of Lucille, even feeling the first pangs of jealousy. I would attend her lectures, sitting in the back row and resenting any students who asked an over-elaborate question. At my insistence she abandoned her punk hairstyle for something less provocative and modestly lowered her eyes whenever a man passed her in the street.

 

     All this tension was to explode when the supervisor arrived at Lucille’s apartment. The sight of this dark-eyes young Jesuit in his Gypsy Brigand costume, mouthing his smooth amatory patter as he expertly steered Lucille towards her bedroom, proved too much for me. I gave way to a paroxysm of violence, hurling the fellow from the apartment.

 

      From the moment the ambulance and police were called, our scheme was over. Lucille was assigned to a rehabilitation centre, once a church home for fallen mothers, and I was brought before a national service tribunal.

 

     In vain I protested that I wished to marry Lucille and father her child. I had merely behaved like a male of old and was passionately dedicated to my future wife and family.

 

      But this, I was told, was a selfish aberration. I was found guilty of the romantic fallacy and convicted of having an exalted and idealized vision of woman. I was sentenced to a further three year of patriotic duty.

 

      If I rejected this, I would face the ultimate sanction.

 

      Aware that by choosing the latter I would be able to see Lucille, made my decision. The tribunal despaired of me, but as a generous concession to a former student of medicine, they allowed me to select my own surgeon.

 

 

 

-End-

 

 

 

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Love In A Colder Climate – Part 2

 

    To look at this strange world where sex has become compulsory, one must look back to the ravages brought about in the last decade of the 20^th century but e scourge of AIDS and the pandemic of associated diseases clustered around its endlessly mutating virus. By the mid-1990s this ferocious plague had begun to threaten more than the millions of individual lives. The institutions of marriages and the family, ideals of parenthood, and the social contract between the sexes, even the physical relationship between man and woman, had been corrupted by this cruel disease. Terrified of infection, people learnt to abstain from every kind of physical or sexual contact. From puberty onward, an almost visible cordon divided the sexes. In offices, factories, schools and universities the young men and women kept their distance. My own parents in the 1980s were among the last generation to marry without any fear of what their union might produce. By the 1990s, too often, courtship and marriage would be followed by a series of mysterious ailments, anxious visits to a test clinic, a positive diagnosis and the terminal hospice.

 

    Faced with a plunging birth rate and with a nation composed almost entirely on solitary celibates, the government could resort only to its traditional instruments – legislation and compulsion. Urged on by the full authority of the Protestant and Catholic churches, the Third Millennium was greeted with the momentous announcement of henceforth sex would be compulsory. All fertile, healthy and HIV-negative young men and women were required to register for their patriotic duty. On reaching their twenty-first birthdays they were assigned a personal supervisor (usually a local clergyman, the priesthood alone having moral qualifications for such a delicate task), who drew up a list of possible mates and arranged a program of sexual liaisons. Within a year, it was hoped, the birth rate would soar, and marriage and the family would be re-established.

 

    At first, only one assignation each week was required, but the birth rate stubbornly refused to respond, possibly as a result of the sexual ineptness of these celibate young men and women. By the year 2005 the number of compulsory assignations was raised to three each week. Since clearly nothing could be left to nature, the participants were issued with costumes designed to enhance their attractiveness. In addition to the Prince Valiant and the Bunny Girl, there were the Castilian Waiter and the Gypsy Brigand for men and the Cheerleader ad the Miss America swimsuit for women.

 

    Even so the first participants would often sit tongue-tied for hours, unable to approach each other, let alone hold hands. From then on they were carefully coached in the amatory arts by their clergymen-supervisors, who would screen erotic videos for the young recruits in their church halls, by now substantial warehouses of pornographic films and magazines.

 

    As could be expected, the threat of two years of enforced sexual activity was deeply resented by the conscripted young men and women. Draft-dodging was carried to extreme lengths, of which vasectomy was the most popular, any perpetrators being sentenced to a testicular transplant. To prevent the young people from failing to perform their sexual duties, a network of undercover inspectors (usually novice priests and nuns, since only they possessed the necessary spirit of self-sacrifice) posed as the participants and would exact fierce on-the-spot fines for any slackening-off or lack of zeal.

 

    All this at last had its effect on the birth rate, which begun its reluctant ascent. The news was little consolation to those like myself, who every evening were obliged to leave our homes and trudge the streets on the way to yet another hour of loveless sex . How I longed for June 2012, when I would complete my period of patriotic duty and begin my real sex life of eternal celibacy.

 

    Those dreams, though, came to an abrupt end in the spring of 2011, when I called upon Lucile McCabe. After meeting her I woke up to discover a lost world of passion and the affections whose existence I had never suspected, and to fulfill my life’s ambition in a way I had not foreseen.

 

 

 

to be continued.

Love In A Colder Climate – Part 1

    Anyone reading this confession in 1989, the year I was born, would have been amazed to find me complaining about a state of affairs that must in every respect have resembled paradise. However, yesterday’s heaven all too easily becomes today’s hell. The greatest voluptuary dream of mankind, which has lifted the spirits of poets and painters, presidents and peasants, has turned only twenty-two years later into a living nightmare. For young men of my own generation (the world provokes a shudder in the heart, if nowhere else), the situation has become so desperate that any escape seems justified. The price that I have paid for my freedom may seem excessive, but I am happy to have made this savage, if curious, bargain.

 

    Soon after I reached my twenty-first birthday I was ordered to enlist for my two years of national service, and I remember thinking how much my father and grandfather would have envied me. On a pleasant summer evening in 2010, after a tiring day at the medical school, I was ringing the doorbell of an apartment owned by an attractive young woman whose name I had been given. I had never met her, but I was confident that she would greet me in the friendliest way – so friendly that within a few minutes we would be lying naked together in bed. Needless to say, no money would change hands, and neither she nor I would play our parts for less than the most patriotic motives. Yet both of us would loathe the touch of the other and would be only too relieved when we parted an hour later.

 

    Sure enough, the door opened to reveal a confident young brunette with a welcoming, if brave, smile. According to my assignment card, she was Victoria Hale, a financial journalist on a weekly news magazine. Her eyes glanced at my face and costume in the shrewd way she might have scanned a worthy but dull company prospectus.

 

    “David Bradley?” She read my name from her own assignment card, trying to muster a show of enthusiasm. “You’re a medical student… How fascinating.”

 

    “It’s wonderful to meet you, Victoria,” I riposted. “I’ve always wanted to know about… financial journalism.”

  

    I stood awkwardly in the centre of her apartment, my legs turning to lead. These lines of dialogue, like those that followed, had seemed preposterous when I first uttered them. But my supervisor had wisely insisted that I stick to the script, and already, after only three months of national service, I was aware that the formalized dialogue, like our absurd costumes, provided a screen behind which we could hide our real feelings.

 

    I was wearing the standard-issue Prince Valiant suit, which a careful survey of the TV programs of the 1960s had confirmed to be the most sexually attractive costumes of the predatory male. In a suit like this Elvis Presley roused the Last Vegas matrons to an ecstasy of abandon, though I found its tassels, gold braid and tight crotch as comfortable as the decorations on a Christmas tree.

 

   Victoria Hale, for her part, was wearing a classic Playboy bunny outfit of the same period. As she served me a minute measures of vodka her breasts managed to be both concealed and exposed in a way that an earlier generation must have found irresistibly fascinating, like the rabbit tail that bounced above her contorted buttocks, a furry metronome which already had me glancing at my wristwatch.

 

    “Mr. Bradley, we can get it over with now,” she remarked briskly. She had departed from the script but quickly added: “Now tell me about work, David. I can see that you’re an interesting man.”

 

     She was as bored with me as I was uneasy with her, but in a few minutes we would be lying together in bed. With luck my hormonal and nervous systems would come to my rescue and bring our meeting to a climax. We would initial each other’s assignment cards and make a thankful return to our original lives. Yet the very next meeting another young man in a Prince Valiant suit would ring the doorbell of the apartment, and this thoughtful journalist would greet him in her grotesque costume. And I, in turn, at eight o’clock would put aside my anatomy textbooks and set out through the weary streets to an arranged meeting in an unknown apartment, where some pleasant young woman – student, waitress or librarian – would welcome me with the same formal smile and stoically take me to bed…. 

to be continued.